We've been watching the DIY (Do It Yourself) nextwork lately...
Oh, how it makes me want to buy a house. Even a fixer-upper...something that we could make our own.
I love the fact that we live in a house right now. It is double the space that we had in the apartment. It is awesome to have a ton of room...and basically all new appliances because they've been replaced within the past year. But oh to have a place of our own!!
Right before Bella was born, I was determined to buy a house. It wasn't happening. At all. Nothing was working. We looked. We talked to a real estate agent and a mortgage company. It just wasn't the right time. I was broken. I wanted to raise my baby girl in a house, not an apartment. I cried. A lot. And I was 8 months pregnant, so that didn't help.
Then the Holy Spirit gently spoke to my heart. He reminded me that I can't take the material things of this world with me when I die. When I get to heaven, it will not have mattered if we owned a house or lived in a cardboard box. Seriously. It doesn't matter.
So, we lived in an apartment, which was fine. And now we live in a house, which is even better. I do believe that someday we will own a house, with a fenced-in back yard...and I will be able to paint the walls and do things that I want to do. I may even take a truck and trailer over to IKEA and spend some of our renovation money there!
It's all wishful thinking.
Bella knows the whole chorus and bridge to a worship song now...she sings it often, and it is a beautiful thing to hear her sweet voice.
She sings, "I need You, Jesus, to come to my rescue. Where else can I go? There's no other Name by which I am saved. Capture me with grace...I will follow You."
Then she sings the bridge... "This world has nothing for me, I will follow You."
Now, the funny thing is that she started singing this song because I started singing it in my I'm going to pull out my hair if these kids don't take a nap soon moments. But she was listening, and now it's become her song too. And if I can get that in her heart, I've done something right. And so if we never get the house that we want, it doesn't matter. I want her to know that I believe it when I sing that "this world has nothing for me...I will follow You, Jesus" even if I don't get what I want...if I don't get my way. I'm still going to follow Jesus. That is worth more than anything this world has to offer me.